Happiness ?

On January the 1st, I cried ...not because I was upset but because I was the happiest girl alive that day.However a famous saying uncovers that whatever you do on the first day of the year,you will keep doing it every day of the upcoming year.That happened to me,I can no longer last a day without making my eyes sore.It's probably my own fault but I always try so hard to fix the s*it I ruined and it doesn't seem to work even though I put my whole heart and soul into it.

I miss having someone to hug and pour my sorrows to but oh well, another thing I managed to fu*k up using my great talent.

So what do I do when there is nothing else I can do?

Confused girl